Trevor talks to Jesus....

I thought I would share this story with y'all... Last night, Dustin was kneeling beside the bed with Landon as he said his prayers. Dustin called me in the room, and told Landon to tell me what he just prayed. This is what Landon said, "Mommy, Trevor talks with Jesus. Trevor is my brother and he is going night night for a while, but he is with Jesus. He talks to Jesus." Me and Dustin just looked at each other and smiled. Landon was so right. Trevor is in Heaven, and I'm sure Jesus talks to him every day. I feel sure that Jesus tells Trevor that his mommy, daddy, and brother miss him very much. I can just see Jesus holding Trevor now, and Trevor looking up at Him. I can't wait for that day when I can finally see Trevor again. The last week has been really hard on me and Dustin. I can't sleep at night, and we will just lay in the bed and talk about how different our lives would be if Trevor was still with us. We laugh thinking that he would be right in the middle of our bed, getting all our love and attention, as well as Landon's. I have woken myself up several times this week hollaring Trevor's name. Dustin will just reach over and grab my hand until we both fall back asleep. I would give anything to have this pain in my heart to go away for just 1 minute. But I know it's not. My heart will never be whole again, I mean, my child is not here with me. I know he is alive in Heaven, and doing so much better that we are down here, but I still miss him. I still want him. I still need him. So, until then, I will constantly be reminded that Trevor isn't dead, but alive. And we will have him again...one day.