He hasn't forgotten him....

Last night after supper, Landon went and sat on the couch. He had a book in his hand and after looking at it closer, I realized it was Trevor's photo album. It broke my heart. I went over there and sat down with him,as he looked through the album. Trevor had alot of stuff he was hooked up to, ventilator, blood pressure cuff, heart monitor, and ect. It overwhelmed Landon and he kept asking, "What happened to Trevor?", "He got a boo-boo?" I just kept telling him that Trevor didnt feel good and was sick. I know that Landon still remembers him. We talked about him for over 9 months and even moved Landon to the extra bedroom and turned his room into Trevor's. The other night I was in the Kitchen cleaning up, and Landon was looking in all the cabinets saying, "I can't find him mommy, I cant find him." I said, "What are you looking for Landon?", thinking he had misplaced a toy or something. He said, "I cant find Baby Trevor." Again, it felt like my heart stopped beating, and I just stood there staring at Landon with a solid look on his face. He really was trying to find his baby brother. I know that we will never forget him and he will be talked about all the time. Me and Dustin laughed and cried thinking about what we would have dressed Trevor up for this Halloween. I'll be honest, I didnt feel like getting out and "celebrating" Halloween this year, but I did it for Landon. I must continue to do things for him even though it hurts to think that I should always be caring around another child, no matter where I go, or what I'm doing. I can't quite understand how I can miss someone so much, and only had him for such a short time. It helps to have someone to talk to. I don't know what I would do if I didnt have Mom, Dawn or Dustin. I went and visited Trevor's grave Tuesday, and as soon as I left I had to call Mom. She listened to me cry and grieve over him for about 30 minutes, and would have longer if I needed her. It makes me feel so great that Trevor will never be forgotten. His memories will live on forver. We love and miss you sweet baby of mine.

2K Halloween Party

Landon's 2K class had a Halloween Party on Friday. Landon went as a monkey! Me and Daddy couldnt be there because I had to have out-patient surgery that day, but Amber went with her little boy, Jackson, who is in the same class with Landon, and took some pictures for us! Thank you so much Amber! It looks like Landon had a blast!

Cookies!!!

Sunday afternoon was the perfect weather for baking some warm chocolate chip cookies! Landon even decorated some with sprinkels! Me, Daddy, and Landon enjoyed our cookies with some cold milk! I cant wait for some more days like this!

It's a Pirate... no its a Carolina Football Player!

This year for Halloween, Landon wanted to be a pirate! So we went and got him the outfit and was pretty confident that was what he was going to be. We were about to walk out the door, when Landon decided he wanted to be a Gamecock Football Player. Now that football season is here, he is really getting in to the games(I think he just like standing in front of the TV with Daddy hollering at the Refs and football players). Well, we had the pants, Carolina jersey, and hat so we threw it together. I went and got some black lipstick to put under his eyes and he thought he was the toughest football player ever! He kept showing everyone his black eyes! He was tough and when we woke up the next morning to go to Church, he wanted to wear the black strips again! I had to convince him to wait until we got home! I told Dustin that next year he was going to be a Clemson Football player, and he said that was going too far! I hate my little man was a Carolina football player the same night they blew their game, but Landon is a true Carolina fan!

Jack-O-Lantern

We had a blast carving our very first pumpkin together. Landon had a blast and loved getting the "yucky" stuff out of the pumpkin. We went outside every night and lit the pumpkin. That was Landon's favorite part. We cant wait until next year so we can do this all over again!

Pumpkin' Pickin'

We headed down to Mcleod Farms and got us a couple of pumpkins this year. We ate at our favorite place, Bigs, while we were there too. Landon loved it and had such a fun time. We ended up with 2 pumpkins. 2 to carve, and 1 small one for Landon to color and paint on and keep in the house.